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The Story of Roger Penzabene

Roger Penzabene wrote a trilogy of songs as a testament to his love for his wife. His first song in the trilogy was "You're My Everything", written After learning of her cheating he was heartbroken. He then wrote "I Wish It Would Rain' describing his pain, then finally "I Could Never Love Another" to finish the trilogy of how he felt.

Unable to handle the extreme pain and unwilling to leave his wife, he wrote the last two songs as personal statements to her, publicizing the pain she caused him. After both songs were completed and recorded, tragically Roger committed suicide.


Written by Youtube member latour90 on Jan 12, 2010

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Hey Wifa.

I hope you get some rest on the bus. It will be so exciting to travel through Switzerland.

I got some catching up to do on the blog. I hope I can remember everything from yesterday.

Here it goes:

I got up around 7 on Wednesday. I worked in the studio and watered the lawn. Your dad picked me up at 9:30 and we headed to Northglenn. It was already hot by the time we got there and as we pulled up your dad told me we needed to fill the roll off dumpster with the couches and trash that had gathered behind the shopping center. There were probably four and a half couches. We had to push them with with the front of your dad's van to the dumpster. Once we dealt with the couches, we moved on to an enclosure that contained trash from the restaurant and who ever else was around to dump in. I can't even begin to describe this heap of garbage. It was as dirty and smelly as you can imagine. Despite its putrid state, someone found it a good place to sleep. Your dad and I joked about its luxurious view of the stars, but thinking about it now it is pretty sad. This was a place where I smelled one of the worst odors in my life and someone still found it a suitable place to sleep. It was a vile experience. It was an elaborate display of the humanity's negligence built up over time. The day's saving grace was that your dad and I whooped it in a few hours. We headed home around 12:30. 

When I got home, I took a very cleansing shower. I rested a bit in the cool house and then headed to the studio. I worked for a few hours then took the dogs for a walk. The dogs rolled in the grass and sniffed around.

When we got home I made dinner. The evening after that was pretty mellow and I went to bed.

Today wasn't as eventful as yesterday. I made a smoothie for breakfast that was delicious. I cannot wait to make them for you. They are a good way to tackle a warm morning. I went to the Still and put in my time. It was pretty uneventful and presented little to transcribe here. It is funny to me that I can go work in a trash heap and my mind is more lucid than when I sit behind a desk and play robot. I need to look at Still's work more and appreciate it. 

After work, I got home, cooked dinner, fed the dogs, then went to watch the basketball game.

And what a game it was. I wish we could have been together to watch it. I couldn't contain my dorkiness, even in public. There is just something about basketball. I made a list of things I would want to be if I weren't an artist. First, is a R&B singer. Second, is a meteorologist. And third a basketball player.

That's is for tonight baby. I hope you have a ton of fun in Basel. I wish I was with you. I will be dreaming of you my love. I miss you. One day closer to having you in my arms.   

☂Happy I got you Baby.☂

Hey Wifa.

 I hope you had a good nights rest. I am happy we were able to serendipitously meet online today.

I had a long day today. When I woke up and let the dogs out and the smell of fire wafted into the house. There is a fire burning in the mountains of west of Ft. Collins. It has burned 43,000 acres, the equivalent of 67 square miles.

As you know, your dad and I spent the day in Northglenn at a run down strip mall. In the entirety of the center there was only one dollar store occupying the space. It was grim. It was hard not to wonder what the point was during the day. We have the task of trying to make it presentable to prospective renters. I say good luck, the place looks like a money pit. However, I am happy it exist because it provides work for your dad and me. I spent the day sweeping the sidewalk of the strip mall. It was hot out and my shoulders were aching by the end of the day. I spent the whole day pushing a broom at the down and out strip mall. The whole time I kept reassuring myself that I can make something good come out of this by realizing that this work would fund my art work. You dad spent the day scraping windows. In the center of the space there was a restaurant called the "Los 3 Jalapenos." I think they marketed it as a multi-faceted restaurant. One game room, one restaurant and one speed dating space. On the interior, the space is a disaster. Clearly discarded. It became the home of vagrants who trashed the place. At one point and 82 year old woman came to the center hoping to eat at the restaurant that she liked. She found the shell of a triple threat restaurant that no longer existed. I thought of the memories she might have had in the space and how it exist presently. It was as if something had died. We wrapped up our day early and headed home.

After taking to you, I headed to the studio and started to apply plaster to the mold for the support shell.

At 7 I cleaned up and headed to the Santa Fe Tavern to watch the game. Oklahoma won. After the game, I came home and waited for you. I love you so much Wifa. I am going to bed to dream of you.

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Hey Baby,

I miss you. I dont even know how to begin. I love you so much. I want to be with you. As you know now, I am sort of losing my edge. I am so lonely without you. I am constantly inside my own head. It is hard not having anyone to share my thoughts with. You are all I got baby. 

My day was long, weird and draining. 

I woke up feeling weird about our chat and my behavior. I started the day by walking the dogs. It was a pleasant morning. Once again we did the short loop. I fed the dogs and got ready for work.

I arrived at Beau Visage at 8:30. The first half of the day I did some demo work, taking down shelves and pulling off cove base. Your dad left for a meeting in Thorton for some future work. I wrapped up my tasks around 11:30. I took lunch at the grocery store. I only had three bucks so I bought a couple of energy bars and a can of tea. It was sufficient to hold me over for the day. After lunch I returned to Beau Visage, but your dad had not come back yet. I texted him and he told me to wait for him. I sat in the car for about an hour and a half fighting my drowsiness. When your dad got back he put me to work putting cove base up in the tenant finish. It took me until 5 to finish my task, then after that I helped your dad clean up the space. The job is all but done but the electrician pulled a no show. Your dad was not pleased. He has to go back in the morning and meet "sparky" in the morning before Beau Visage opens to finish. Tomorrow we will be in Thorton.

After work, I came home and put the water on the yard. I leashed the dogs up and went for a walk. I really wanted to get into, but I proved was too tired. I made dinner. Spaghetti and brussels spouts. I made the spaghetti. While I was straining the spaghetti, I accidentally dumped it all into the sink. I ate the brussels sprouts by themselves then remade the pasta.

Now I am tired. It was a long day at work. Tomorrow I need to be in the studio.

I hope you had a good day wife. I miss you so much. We are at the two week point. Getting closer every day.

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Hey Baby.

I hope you are getting some good sleep.

My day off was good. I got some stuff done around the house and in the studio. I worked with Bondo and plaster. Walking into the house today I slammed my finger in the door. My middle finger on my right hand now has a cut that is about the same size as the burn on the finger next to it. It is funny that my right hand is having these accidents. I can't explain it. I mowed the yard and plan to fertilize one side of the yard. The sun has been hotter lately, so the grass is showing a little fatigue. The lawn mower is operating weird. It starts on the first pull, but once you shut it down it won't start again. I have been working in the backyard too, just trying to keep up really. Those trees in the backyard have to be cut down they do nothing but spread their seeds. I guess their are called the "Tree of Heaven" Sort of ironic. As I was cleaning up the grass clippings, I started to hear crows cawing. I looked up and saw a few of them chasing a small hawk. They were trying to chase it out of the area and eventually succeeded. Crows are so territorial, I think that is the fourth time I have seen them gang up on an "intruder" Once was another crow, one time a hawk, one was a cat and this time another hawk. No wonder their population is growing.

After mowing the yard, the dogs and I went to Cheeseman. We did one loop as the sun was beginning to set. The sunsets of late have been glorious, makes me proud to be born in June. I was thinking that we would do two loops, but as we started the second Funf stopped in the middle of the track and was like, "I am done." I have never seen him communicate more clearly. I tugged on his leash to see if he was playing, but he turned around and headed toward the car. Funf is one smart dog. 

After the walk we came home. I made dinner. I had penne pasta with red sauce and asparagus. It was good. I am happy I made it because it will provide me the energy to keep up with your dad tomorrow. I think we have a lot to do. 

I hope you had a good evening love. I miss you so much. I can't wait to see you tonight.

You are the love of my life. Another day done.

Oh yeah. Uola popped the basketball.